Painting to be Perfect

Am I the only one who waits until the night before people are coming over to cross things off my to-do list? Here I am at 11pm, the night before 6moms and toddlers are coming over for a toddler valentine party, painting a spot on the wall and framing pictures and baking banana bread among other things. The spot on the wall has needed to be fixed for months. But I don't want to host my friends with a big white putty spot on my wall, so it must be fixed tonight. I have always been motivated by deadlines so it is not surprising that I am doing all these things tonight. It may be pride, but mostly just my desire for everything to be as perfect as possible when I am playing hostess. Here we go again with my epitaph "She had some great ideas but...." Nothing ever turns out exactly as perfect as I would like it to, like the picture in my head. But that doesn't stop me from trying.

I love to be the hostess, but I have very high expectations for myself. Perfect house, perfect decorations, perfect food, perfect party.... totally unattainable and dooming myself for disappointment. But I fall into this trap everytime.


I am really trying this time to keep my own expectations within manageble limits. I have delegated and am trying to keep things simple. Yet, here I am baking and painting at 11 pm.
This whole margin-thing is a process, I guess.

I am really excited for the party and think it will be super-fun. I'll let you know how the party goes. :)

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